Psycho-Spiritual Breakthrough

August 11th, 2009 | Posted by paul in Uncategorized - (Comments Off on Psycho-Spiritual Breakthrough)

What would you do, whether through accident or providence, stumbled on a way to radically accelerate your personal and spiritual evolution and could show others how to do the same?  Would you tell the world, shout it from the rooftops, go on a lecture circuit… OR would you keep it to yourself and spend that valuable time applying what you know to your own life to see if it actually works, then through example show others how to do the same?  This is not an easy question.  The reason is that now more than ever people need answers – practical, no-nonsense solutions to improve their condition. This is especially paramount today as the problems of the world continue to mount with no clear way out.  The question of our age is will we as a species survive our technological adolescence long enough to lay a clear pathway for humanity long-term survival in the future.  But not just survival, but learning to live in harmony with each other and the Earth and in turn spread out into the cosmos and fulfill the hopes of Utopian dreamers everywhere.


I am reminded again of one of my favorite Star Trek: The Next Generation Episodes called Transfigurations. where a beautiful and tender man with emerging and extraordinary abilities is rescued by the Enterprise crew. Initially he suffers from amnesia from a shipwreck in which the others traveling with him were killed.  Later we discover they were fleeing their home planet because their government wants to execute them because it fears their new abilities.  It turns out the survivor is the first of his kind to transcend to the next evolutionary phase of their species – an immortal being of light.  It’s definitely worth watching, especially it’s allegorical treatment of current society’s fears around similar themes.

So back to my original question.  What would you do?  If you decide on the first option you will join a loud and growing course of others saying the same thing, most of whom are making such claims in an effort to secure a fast buck in the spiritual marketplace. If you check out this “spiritual” bazaar you’ll find it absolutely saturated with every imaginable huckster, motivational speaker, and guru offering their own special technique that when followed will bring you instant riches and spiritual enlightenment.  It continues to astound me how the same old message gets rehashed every few years by a new person on the scene, where the public is all too willing to embrace them as if finally someone will tell them “The Secret” to it all.

But, if you indeed do have something truly valuable and that has worked miracles so far, thousands, perhaps millions of people would benefit if they knew what you knew.  And time is wasting every minute you hold on to your little secret.  But then you just happened on this little formula for rapid evolution.  You’re not sure if it will keep working.  More importantly after using your new found knowledge for a few years you discover in the long run it doesn’t produce the results you thought it did. You’re smart enough to know there are no short cuts, but you do have a way now to take the only road their is through the thick of it, but do it in a way that is vastly superior (faster) than anything that’s come before it..or so you think so far based on your experiments.

Transfigurations2What would you do? Tell the world now and possibly save the world from its misery, or keep it to yourself and see if it really works? Then if it does you can show people by your example, risking perhaps a lot of unnecessary misery in the world that could have been prevented had you spoken up sooner.

Personally I’m taking the middle ground – staying mum on any grandiose claims until I’ve had enough time to see the long-term results, while sharing what I know with those sincere and courageous seekers willing to do it for themselves.




Post-Reason by Kartott

March 21st, 2009 | Posted by paul in Uncategorized - (Comments Off on Post-Reason by Kartott)

Once every so often I discover a new voice and kindred spirit who shares my own perspective yet articulates it in new and refreshing ways.  Yesterday Kartott (I don’t know her real name) became known to me by following me on twitter. I followed her back and started reading her new blog.  It’s great stuff and features a lot of her artwork.

From her first entry:

What are we? How have we come to be here on this planet? Are we living a life as fully conscious beings? I suspect not. What are visions, dreams, things seen that ought not to be seen? Do we conjure such things as ghosts, aliens, fairies out of deep genetic memory? Or are they glimpses of a broader reality?

Of late, I have been exploring a number of alternate realties: ufos, ghosts, psychedelic phenomena. All seem to be pointing to some undercurrent of reality that we can barely tip our toe into. We mostly deny it, put it down to “imagination” or simple fantasy. We even deny our own directly experienced phenomena, shutting the door to a wider world. This seems driven by a larger culture intent on squashing all things mysterious, unknown or unknowable. We believe that because such experiences are beyond measure and simple human reasoning, they must therefore not real. Yet they all seem to point to a more fully realized consciousness, a kind of multi-dimensional existence. Our everyday brain seems divorced from this, almost as if there is a wall in place between our everyday functioning mind and our visioning, dreaming consciousness.

An interesting aspect to this (from my admittedly scant observation): people who traverse this consciousness divide seem to possess a high degree of creativity. A large proportion are artists, writers, musicians, or are generally creative in other aspects of their lives. Many express interest in spiritual or deep intuitive connections. Some meditate. Apart from the creative process itself (or perhaps as a part of it), I wonder if this points to a necessary admission of imagination as a fundamental key to the door in the wall. 
As neuroscientist Jill Bolte Taylor discussed beautifully in her 2008 TED Talk, the left and right hemispheres of our brain have very different ways of perceiving the universe.  Arguing which perspective is more correct, misses the more important point that both perceptions are filters our brains use to subtract out information from the larger unseen universe.  Believing that one is more correct than the other, or worse that our perceptions of the universe with all of our scientific and technological enhancements represents reality, is a very naive and deeply anthropocentric bias.”There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, Than are dreamt of in your philosophy.” – Hamlet, Shakespeare.


Love, Death & Redemption

September 10th, 2006 | Posted by paul in Uncategorized - (Comments Off on Love, Death & Redemption)

theflowTeetering on the edge… identity, self, being here now… so precious, so fragile… the slightest breeze, and your GONE.  The protections, the self, those around you, who you thought you are, were, gone… to be replaced by ANYTHING.  Are “you” now a chipmunk, a rock, that “weirdness” you were afraid of in other people?  Now you become all of that.  All that you held sacred, gone too, nothing there, total loss.

How often have you experienced something like this?  A profound death, a deep, overwhelming explosion into your psyche, your emotions ill equipped to handle the overload and rapid changing flux of ontological warpage?  A whiteout void into total oblivion and/or timeless eternity….

Coalescing out of the timeless whiteness, a sacred breath, a touch of grace perhaps, an emergence of something altogether new, different, alive, glorious, with memories, a past, present and future once again.  How weird is that?  Archetypes abound, a wizard or an elf perhaps?  A feeling of empowerment.   For you have gone to the netherworld and returned a hero!  A celebration is in order, a round of drinks for your comrades in arms, a fellowship indeed.  Ground control to major tom, your home, welcome back!

But that thought lingers in your mind, “back to what?”  Is this my life, have I returned or is this my first time here with memories implanted or inherited?  Does it matter?  Can I do anything about it anyway?  Is the solution to kick warp drive back into high gear again?  I don’t know.  What I have learned is that all the warp drive in the world won’t change this basic buckaroo banzai fact, “wherever you go, there you are”.  You can try, so many have tried, to escape the tyranny of the self.  Yet, there is this something, Hindu’s call it karma, that keeps bring you back here.  And somehow, the more you avoid the here and now, the more you are missing the one thing, the body-being, present moment at the crossroads of spirit and matter, your bodyship that is in fact the very wellspring of the liberation you seek.

Ok, so you hope you took on a better birth than the one before, but you also suspect this time you might have taken on a stray passenger, an alien, or sub-daemon now working its way into the engine room of your root metaprograms.  Are you going to be alright with this?  Do you have a choice?  If we are a collection of programs, and our free-will magickal skills are not all there cracked up to be, what choices do we really have?  This is the dilemma, the existential angst, the harrowing horror that you glimpsed on the way out and the way back in.  But wait!

The Buddhist say that all of this, all of the programs, metaprograms, crazy out of your mind stuff, the chaos under the hood, it’s all an illusion.  What is a seeker supposed to do?  Desperate times call for desperate measures.  My god, why have you forsaken me?  LOVE!

Feel.  What you can always do, what you always have a choice to do each and every moment is feel.  Feeling is healing.  Feel ALL of it, surrender to it.  It is in that feeling, that being there for yourself, that healing, true unconditional love truly begins.  I can’t say it’s going to be easy.  I can’t say what kind of rebirth you are now in, or what it portends, there is no way to know.  This is the same for everyone.  Too little time to envy those who “seem” to have it altogether, who seem to have everything.  Envy gets you nowhere.   Perhaps they are none of those things.  You are what you are, right here, right now, in this moment, a body inhabiting the physical plane.  .  Surrender to this moment, the experience of being in a body. You don’t deserve to exist in darkness anymore, but your body knows…  Light is right here with you, right now, NO MATTER WHAT ELSE happens, despite the injustice of your situation.  Love like there is no tommorow.  Love, and you will be set free.


I was introduced to the works of Nikos Kazantzakis (1883-1957) many years ago when I was living at Arcosanti. His words moved me like no other. Considered by many to be one of Greeks greatest prose writers and philosophers  Nikos Kazantzakis wrote a book called Saviors of God – Spiritual Exercises.

Thanks to Julian West, there was a still a cached version of this book online. Long out of print and copyright expired I believe this book has now fallen into the public domain. Along with many other unique works I’ve added Saviors of God – Spiritual Exercises to the library.